Tired.

Stupid things break me down easy on this generic love shit.
For the record, I'm so tired, so through with it.

And the whole world's a stage...

I was crammed in a room surrounded by poperei smelling old people. That was not cool. Today was an aiiiiighht day I guess. I'm fucking stressed as hell though. So many things going on at once, my brain can't function properly. I don't want to be too forward. I'm keeping it cool. I need to get things together, the end of the school year is in 8 days. I can't BELIEVE how fast it went by...I honestly can't believe it. This is going to be so hard.

For once.

In a good mood. For once. I don't care. For once. I'm over it. For once. I'm not giving a flying fuck. For once. I'm sticking to my goals. For once. I'm moving on. For once. I'm kinda hungry. I want panda express. And a strawberry lemonade. Okay, this seems to be going no where. I'm bored. Cookies are falling apart. I think God is finally starting to listen to me, things are starting to go right again. AHHHH!!!

Don't Wait, Don't Hate.

I am repeatedly telling myself "You're okay, you're okay, YOU ARE OKAY, it's all in your head, it doesn't hurt" But does that really work? Does that really help? I want him to be happy, but it's hard to see him happy with someone else. It's the typical situation everyone goes through. I can't go on and pretend like I've tried to forget this, but I know that once I forget, I'll be alright. I may never understand why, but I'm doing the best that I can. It sucks. A lot. I just can't seem to get over the way he hurt me. I'll always remember feeling like I was no good. What did you do to me. You could have told me you weren't happy, I know you didn't want to hurt me, but just look at what you've done to me now, I've gotta look at her in her eyes and see she has half of me. But I'm alright, I'm alright.

:)

The Process

There are so many up's and downs. Right when I think I'm finally putting myself back together again, something drags me back down. I'm trying to be strong. Really, I am. Hanging out and meeting other people, enjoying life, but there's always that last thing murdering me before I hit the hay. The past is the past, everyone claims that's where it belongs and where it should surely stay. Is it wrong that I want someone to be completely miserable?

Happy Madre Day!

So unfortunetely I couldn't spend mothers day...with my mother. Her fuckfacedickhead boss made her work. It's okay though, we'll have our day. My bra broke today =[ So I went to the mall and bought a new one...along with a lot of other crap I wasted my money on. Then my phone was being stupid, and that extremely frustrated me. THEN I watched Marley and Me, I was warned before...Cam told me it WILL make you cry, and guess what? I cried. Haha, but it was a good film. That's pretty much my day. I'm tired.

Amigos

Now do you remember when you were in Elementary School, and you considered allllll these people to be your "best friends forever" ? Then think back to middle school, all the drama, where you think you've found your "true friends" and you let them walk all over you.
Then you enter highschool, which is where I happen to be at the moment. People betray you, they will do anything to hurt you, they DON'T GIVE A SHIT. No one really does, and you will learn who is truly there for you. In the end, there is only a few that will stick around. It's up to you to be smart.

Waking Up

You can’t change someone who is a waste of time. People are who they are, sitting around throwing minutes out the window - if someone shows you who they are, believe them. You need to get up and go on with your life. It's alright to be depressed for a moment, cry, scream, whatever, but don’t stay there too long. If somebody wants to walk out of your life, let them go. Especially if you know you've done everything you can do, you've been the best man or best woman you can possibly be and they still want to go. Whatever it is that they're running after, they’ll see what they had in a second, but by then, they'll realize what they don't have, and you'll realize what you don't need.