End.

Well you know that I'm cold.
Black on constellations gold.
And you know that you're sold.
Black top under lacing won't let it go.
It was all for you.
All for you and more.
She won't chase him anymore.
To the end,
Never leave.
Fall asleep on the first I face.
And they say,
Play the game.
You and me found love.
Lost under the shade.
Well you know I'm a ghost.
Pull the note out of my throat,
And leave me alone.
But it's all for you,
All for you and more.
He won't take her anymore.

Obsessed.

Lately I've noticed how obsessive I've become about my body. I don't know if this is good or bad, but I don't know how I'm feeling about this. I think it's good that I'm finally trying to change my bad habits, and yet I'm worried that I'm not being myself. I feel like a machine. Counting calories, strictly water, no junk food, sugars, nothing. And then there's the whole exercising deal; going to the gym every single day at 7:00 pm, working my ass off [almost literally] I want to change myself so desperately. I want to be that slim, beautiful girl that everyone likes. But I'm not. I know in a few months, I'll look back at this present Andrea state of mind and think, "Wow, how insecure was I?" Until then, there's nothing anyone can do to break this funk I'm in.

Let's Run Away

Wake from your sleep.
The drying of your tears.
Today we escape.
We escape.

Pack and get dressed.
Before your father hears us.
Before all hell breaks loose.

Don't lose your nerve.
Breathe keep breathing
I can't do this alone.

You can laugh.
A spineless laugh.
We hope your rules and wisdom choke you.
Now we are one.
In everlasting peace.

We hope that you choke.

Stupid.

I'm numb.
I'm stupid.
I'm staying.
And if Cupid's got a gun, then he's shooting.
Lights black.
Heads bang.
You're my drug.
We live it.
You're drunk, you need it.
Real love, I'll give it.
So we're bound to linger on.
We drink the fatal drop.
Then love until we bleed.
Then fall apart in parts.
You wasted your times.
On my heart.
You've burned.
And if bridges gotta fall, then you'll fall, too.
Doors slam.
Lights black.
You're gone.
Come back.
Stay gone.
Stay clean.
I need you to need me.